• squash
• squash
• fall salad, banana

// Happy Chinese New Years//

I had a lovely food filled day without regret. I just need to get on track now. :P

It’s 8pm. I showered. I weighed myself; 152.8 lbs. I’ll go to bed at 1 and try to get 6 hours of sleep. ^_^

I want to be more aesthetically pleasing. The media and social factors have influenced me to think beauty is everything. I cannot help it. I’ve been conditioned to want to be “beautiful.”

I tried to get away from the “beauty concept.” I chopped off my long locks, threw away my makeup, & denied my feminine personality. That failed. Did you think there was going to be a good ending to this because no… no there isn’t.

I want to be beautiful.